I still didn't believe I could be pregnant. I didn't feel nauseous, moodier/more sensitive than usual, just a lot of cramping. Thankfully, my cramps normally aren't that bad (I feel for those gals out there that suffer each month with more severe symptoms). Just because I've never been late doesn't mean that there is not a first time for it? Then I thought, do I tell Casey now or wait till after I've taken a pregnancy test? I didn't want to tell him until I was certain we were pregnant. Honestly the waiting/unknown game was excruciating!!! Lots of prayers said for me to be happy/faithful regardless of what happened. Trying to work and not get distracted was interesting, but luckily it was busy to keep my mind off of it.
When I got home that evening, I decided to tell Casey. I figure it was fair to the boy to share what I was going through and since it was part his child if I was pregnant, I felt he deserved to know. Oh my goodness, he was SO EXCITED!! His reaction was priceless!! He said he was proud of me (gee thanks, I did so much to make it happen) and gave me the biggest grin I think I've seen since our wedding. I tried to reinforce that it wasn't definite, it was just a possibility so not to get our hopes up. By this point I was only a day late, so we decided to wait a few more days till we took any pregnancy tests. I did some reading online at work in the few minutes I could carve out on Tuesday, and one site I found said the best time to take a test was in the morining to make sure the restults would be the most accurate and not diluted by anything.
On my way home from work, I decided to stop by and get some pregnancy tests. Regardless of when they were going to be taken, they needed to be purchased. I got 3 different kinds because I wanted to be sure and not have a false positive. Time just seemed to be creeping by and 2 more days of waiting seemed like FOREVER!!!! I got home and decided I had to try the tests to see what they would say. Off to the bathroom I went (without saying anything to Casey). That 3 minutes your waiting seemed like eternity, but the whole time I just prayed. Prayed that Casey and I would not be discouraged if the results were negative, that we still be faithful and strive to walk closer each day to God even when things did not go the way we hoped. If we were pregnant, I prayed for a healthy pregnancy/baby and for Casey and I to be strong, godly parents who would teach this little one about God and His Son. I couldn't believe the first test I saw had 2 lines on it, meaning we were pregnant!!
Holy moly, this was real!!! The other 2 tests I took were the ones where it shows a plus sign if you're pregnant, and I discovered I'm not as big of a fan of those. They are much harder to read in my opinion. This is not a good time to not be able to read clearly!!! Both of those looked to be positive too, so that made me a little more certain it was true. Casey by this time is wondering what in the world happened to me, so when he came to find me I was holding the tests. He thought we were going to wait, and I just couldn't hold out any longer. Once I told him they were positive, he got over that I cheated (I know I violated Marriage 101: Communication, communication, communication). I always pictured I would think of this creative, fun way to tell him I was pregnant, but reality for me set in and I didn't have time to do that.
That's it for now. Here's Baby Hixon making it's pictoral debut on our blog at about 9 weeks (though now I am almost 13 wks). More posts to come!!! Have a great week!!!
"Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows." James 1:17